I could blame my lack of posts on my busy schedule. I am taking a pretty demanding research class, we are busy at school with end of the year activities, and softball is about to really gear up. I've been busy preparing the house for our new little one, and of course with warm weather finally here I have been trying to cram in some much needed time in the sun, but really I haven't blogged because I am lazy. By the end of my day I just don't feel like uploading pictures and typing about the things that are making me so tired. This week I've actually gotten emails and phone calls from a few friends wondering where my blogs have gone...they were worried that something awful had happened and there would be no more baby blogs...nothing terrible has happened like I said I'm just slacking!
So here is a run down of the past three weeks!
My 16th week went by pretty uneventful, I ended up shopping for lots of cute baby accessories and added the last few touches to my nursery. I now have my pack-n-play, a high chair, a travel system, a swing, bouncer, and a bath tub (all winnie the pooh themed of course). I feel like we have gotten a real good start getting ready for October. I spent a good deal of time reading books on pregnancy, labor, and of course babies. Like I said it was a pretty quiet week!
My 17th week was a good week because I had another doctor's appointment and this was a special one because I was able to schedule that long awaited ultrasound. We will get to find out who this little pumpkin is June 9th! We are very excited! I feel like as soon as we find out if we are having a boy or a girl we can really start getting ready! I am so eager to buy some new outfits and buy the letters to hang on the nursery wall. It will be so nice to be able to call this little one by name. Also at our last appointment on May19th I heard the heartbeat again, it was 157, still pretty high. Lots of people are telling me that definitely means girl. I am sure it is an old wives tale but, it is fun to hear everyone's theories.
Now we are in our 18th week, and I don't know about everyone else, but I think we are having a heat wave! It is so hot outside and it makes me think I am not going to enjoy summer weather. It's the last week of school and I am so excited about having time off to perhaps blog more, work on my scrapbook, and of course SHOP!
Things have been really great and this has definitely been one of the happiest times of my life. Still a part of me is very sad that I can not share this blessing with my dad. I know he would have been so happy to know he was getting a new grandbaby, his grand children were his life! I can now see why he was so crazy about his grand daughters, it is such an amazing feeling to know that we have made this little being, so I can only imagine the pride it must cause to know that you are going to be a grand parent. I feel like I am missing out on a lot right now. I've had people come up to me and say they have talked to my mother and that they are shocked that she is not excited about this baby. I guess in the beginning I was kidding myself and lying to myself for thinking she would actually want to be a part of this. I guess it was hopeful thinking since she didn't jump down my throat like she did my sister when she was expecting. I know it is silly to be upset at such a wonderful time like this but, it would be nice to go baby shopping with my mom or to hear her say she can't wait to see this baby...she hasn't even guessed what gender the baby will be, and just now came to see the nursery (which she wasn't too impressed with, she told me she didn't like my carpet, a low blow since Kevin installed it himself). She makes me almost feel like I am too stupid to raise a child and that I am insane for being so excited. I know I shouldn't feel this way but, it makes me miss my dad even more and I just really need to let it out.
All in all this has been a good experience and I could not ask for a better life. I am so blessed and I thank god for everything that I have. I just can't believe that this is finally happening! I love this baby so much already and I can not believe we are almost half way there!!!
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